I would never be able to properly sum up our relationship. I think that I will always carry a bit of a torch for you. I remember when we met, I just adored you instantly. And it never ended, for years of friendship, nor all the years after. We were never together, for the record. But we were close, years. I couldn’t have imagined a life where I didn’t fully believe that I would get to hug you one day. Where I didn’t just know that I would get to sit with you, and have a drink of some kind. Sum up what happened while we were apart, and talk about all the cool things we did. I knew we were never going to end together, but I really thought that we could be friends again. And I will always always wish that I could just reach out to you. I’m so sorry if I hurt your feelings. And I forgave you for hurting mine a long time ago. I am so glad that I loved you with reckless abandon, and didn’t withhold it just because you weren’t ready to return that level of affection. I really hope that I helped you feel loved in times where you didn’t really have that. I will never know for sure how our friendship could have transformed over time, and I regret so many ways in which I was lacking when we were in each other’s lives. True to what I said when we parted, I really just wanted you to feel genuine fulfillment, and joy, and love, and warmth. And while I wasn’t there to see it first hand, it seems as though you did have that in the end. And at least I can take comfort in that. I may be one of the only people who got a true, final goodbye from you, as bittersweet as that is. I at least get to know that your last words to me were “Be good in life.” And that mine to you were heartfelt, and expressive. I have missed you since the day we parted, and I always will. I’m devastated to have been so out of the loop that I’ve only found out now. I’ve been crying for 9 hours straight, reminiscing, and am heartbroken I missed your online service. I wish I had a VOD or voice recording to reminisce about all the time spent sitting in calls with you. I can’t even believe you’re gone, honestly. I hope that you knew how dear you were to me, Dillon. I sincerely hope we meet again in whatever afterlife there may be, and have that drink together. Talk crap, and catch up.

Thank you for every moment we spent together, Dillon. I couldn’t have asked for more of you. Thank you for taking care of me, in your own ways. I really loved you. I hope that your rest is peaceful.