Alan, from the moment I knew I will not able to see you again, I have locked my feeling deep inside. I may be the last one to write message in this book, as I really do not wish to write, I do not want to accept the fact that you are gone.

i am not someone good in expressing my feelings, but you are more than a colleague to me, you are a friend, a sincere friend, I never need to doubt on what you have told me. We are not always having same thinking or priority in work, but you will always trying your best to support. You are the most gentle guy in work that I ever see and working with. You always treat everyone you with respect, you always have that beautiful smile, I keep asking myself, why good guy have to leave early?

I knew everything will eventually go back to normal but one missing piece of the puzzle is gone forever. I’ll carry the mom remote of you with me forever.